So Vanessa, what’s with the yoga?
I know, I have long railed against the yoga. I have not so much mocked it as my ability to do it, especially publically. Me doing yoga in public must be amusing for others by totally mortifying for me. So my am I doing it? Easy: I need to chill the hell out.
After taking my first vacation in 8 years, I gained a little perspective. First, the fact that I had taken my last week long vacation for a honeymoon for a marriage I haven’t been in for almost three years is more than sad. It’s pathetic. It’s even more pathetic when my company generously gives me three weeks of vacation a year. It’s not like the hours are hard to come by. There is jyst no excuse for taking yourself that seriously.
That is exactly what I have been doing and for years and years. I take myself way too seriously. I get all upptiy about crap I really should just roll off my back. I let my blood pressure soar. I stress eat. I bark at people. I get snippy. I don’t like it.
So I found a few moments of peace and serenity last week either sitting by the Napa River, overlooking wide and far seas of grapevines, sipping red wine in the afternoon or yummy organic decaf in the morning. I realized that life is moving right by me and very quickly and I have no desire to not live the life that I want to live.
So, I’m chilling the hell out. I’m doing yoga. I am reading Hip Tranquil Chick believing this time that I can actually be hip and tranquil all at the same time. And you know what? I feel hip and tranquil all at the same time. The yoga is actually going pretty damn good though I’m only on day four. But, I have started waking up at 5:30 in the morning so I can get in a good solid 20 minutes (hey, you have to start somewhere) before my daughter gets up. I’m really not that bad at it when you remove all the other people and distractions from the idea of practicing in front of people. However, trying to do triangle pose with three very affectionate dogs does pose a slight problem.
In the next few days and weeks, you’ll be hearing a lot about me trying to shift my entire thought process. We’re talking a lot of philosophy overhaul. Hopefully, you’ll be here to support and perhaps learn from the journey. In the meantime, I’m off to bed. The mat calls early at 5:30 and I need beauty sleep.
Hip and Tranquil?
I am jealous that you can go yoga overlooking grape vines. You gotta try hot Bikram-style yoga. Its like changing. A serious de-stressor.